Feel the fear and do it anyway …
Is the title of a book by Susan Jeffers.
On this kayaking trip, I felt the fear and did it anyway … twice.
Years ago I did a sailing course with Glennans down in Bere island in Cork. The first thing we did on our first morning was capsize the boat and deal with it.
I was conscious that I’d never capsized in a kayak. Okay I wouldn’t dream of going kayaking on my own. I wouldn’t dream of going out unless with another very experienced kayaker. I wouldn’t dream of going out in bad weather conditions. Yet for safety, I felt I should make sure that I could comfortably deal with a capsize on my own … just in case.
I hate being under water. Whilst I’m a strong swimmer, I won’t/can’t dive into water! I also hate deep water. The water is murky, when we’re kayaking so that I can’t see how deep it is. Just as well!
After work one evening I went out to the activities centre on Lough Derg to get a lesson. I have to say it’s a horrible feeling, sitting in a kayak and then have to actively lean out to one side and go under. Horrible. I tried to convince myself that I was going for a swim!
Even I’m not that convincing!
When kayaking one wears a spraydeck – a covering that prevents water coming in. This in effect is a ’skirt’ one wears which is then tightly attached to the boat. In addition, ones knees are out to the edges of the kayak. When you capsize, while upside-down under water, you have to disengage the spraydeck and get your knees together and then out of the boat. Fast. The first night I took a lesson, I didn’t manage to get out without being helped.
I was really disappointed. Because I hadn’t managed to get out unaided, I wasn’t happy to go kayaking again until I had mastered this. Next day I went for another lesson. Basically I spent an afternoon practising capsizing and getting out on my own. Stubborn unreal!
- Lean over, capsize
- As one is going under, immediately lean forward, hands on sides of spraydeck, working forward to the front where the loop of the spraydeck is
- Pull on loop of spraydeck, get knees together
- Hands on side of boat behind you, climb out
- Get to surface and then swim to end of boat and hold on
I practised it a few times and was so happy when I was able to do it un-aided.
To get back into boat requires the other person’s help.
- Other person takes my boat and puts it sideways and upside-down over their boat and tips to to get rid of water
- Get my boat lined up in opposite direction to other boat
- Swim between two boats, lie back and gingerly climb back into my boat, legs first.
By comparison with getting out of the capsized boat, getting back in was easy.
I took the capsizing lessons between parts 1 and 2 of our kayaking trip.
My second ‘feel the fear’ moment was going through one of the locks.
I’d been through a few locks when we went through the lock at Battles Bridge on the Upper Shannon near Leitrim. At this lock we were going from water at a lower level to water at a higher level. We had to rise nine feet.
Our two kayaks went in, gate shut and then the water … thundered in. Imagine sitting in a large jacuzzi in a small boat – that’s what it was like. I stayed calm in my little boat, in the big noisy ‘jacuzzi’, talking calm talk to myself. There are chains hanging down to hold onto. I could hear Noel behind me saying to me not to hold on to the chain too hard. I held on as gently as fear would allow me. I focussed on the water level slowly rising along the wall. I rationalised with myself, the lock-keeper/Noel would never have let kayaks in unless it was really safe.
That’s at least what I hoped.
The whatever number of minutes of feeling the fear was over and we exited the lock onto a glassy canal. I was so relieved. It took kayaking the next 8km of glassy canal to feel normal again.
We still have one day left to do to complete the river. Wind last weekend prevented us from completing it. Sons home from the US/visitors next weekend will prevent me …
The champagne will wait. Tiocfaidh ár lá.
Companies send employees on courses involving physical pursuits for team building. I’ve learnt a lot of self-management skills while kayaking the Shannon. After this, I’m ready for anything!











































